i love my thambi

i love arravin

don't forget [for you] * guess yourself.

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget everything
I had Did you forget
Did you forget
About me
Did you regret (did you regret)
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget (did you forget)
What we were feeling inside
Now I’m left To forget
About us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can’t forget it
So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don’t forget
Don’t forget
We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love Than we were before
I won’t forget I won’t forget About us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can’t forget it
Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can’t forget it at all
And at last, all the pictures have been burned
And all the past, is just a lesson that we’ve learned
I won’t forget, please don’t forget
Us Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won’t sing along
You’ve forgotten about us
Don’t forget ..

thankx M+J+N

this goes to MONI+JELISA+NAVI

LOL! just wanna say thanks for the "party".. even when it was just the 4 of urs with 2 large pizza's. that was like one of the best times of my life . we ate on the bed . lepak lepak .. smash cake on each other . jelisa escape la .. MAKE-UP ! LOL!

then tokin tokin to ****. then he pulak mengada nak tengok different faces .. meaning different girls when in NS! where moni is goin to also . i love him =). and i hope and pray we will stick with each other forever and ever!

-this blog sucks-

not important !

guess what . yesterday was my bday you see .. and yeah i was fun .. you know in skool where you frens make you super happy even when its just hugs and wishes. i don't x-pect presents i don't x-pect parties.. even though there is a party tonite over at moni's .

three of my best friends kindda forgot my bday . but i forgive them cause last year i forgot their bday! and they pretty much made it up to me . my boyfriend was the best ! sharp 12 midnite.. he and blocked nose sang me my bday song and the whole week he had creadit bt he did't text me so i won't know he had creadit cause he wanted to sing to me in a suprise way and i loved it. :) and he was there first one to wish me . and and.. he missed his first football match just to take a bus from his school to perade buy me a MR.BEAN teddybear and i named it CHOCOLATE ! he called me to perade [ i was at school] gave me the teddy bear . told me that he forgot to bring his shirt that i want. told that he has to get back in school by the second match before his team mates kill .. kiss me on my cheeks in front of his frens and the PUBLIC ! and ran for the next bus back to school . wasn't that sweet ?
hehehe!!

-thats the happy part-

-now the sad part-

how would you feel when your god brother and your best friend forgets your birthday when they were the one tellin reminding me about my bday one month before my birthday .. i used to be the person both of themcome to for everything and i was there for they almost for everything. how do you think i feel when you forget ? not even a text , a call , friendster comment , miss call ? it sucks you know ?! don't know la .. don't wanna even think about it . guess im just somebody and not someone in their lives . better off this way arite ? and you both when onlin on friendster.. im sure you have seen the bday reminders rite ? NVM!

thank GOD for my best friends even the one who forgot .. but it was an honest mistake la ,. they felt real bad .. =] .. my family and my boyfriend. these are the people who made this 17 th bday a great one.

= GOD BLESS=
just count you blessing.

sometimes*

you know sometimes when you found the right person for you and its hard to let that person go ?

well i found my that right person .. he is wonderful .. colourful and just a very great guy. he is the best . my best . but there is always one problem .. we fight alot. and i hate it . sometime its because of him sometimes its becauase of me sometimes it not even one of us. he is my first love. and im his fourth. but he says im his last cause this is the first time he fell in love. actually falling in love.

he is the reason i stand tall today . without him, what am i ? he is the kind that he thinks he brings out the bad people .. he thinks he is destroying my life .. he thinks he is not good enough for me and he is just super confused. we broke up once . he asked for it. it was hard on the both of us. but he still loved me and so did i . he never gave me a proper reason why he wanted to split but i just gave him what he wanted . then we remain friends . i tought i lost him forever. that he would not ever want me back. so i moved on and took a chance in love again even when i know i was not ready for another relationship. he was with my best friend. he was well.. my best friend. i do love him but not like my first love. my first love found out that i was with my best friend and he was into bits. he could not take that fact. the fact that i was with another guy.

then he went all out. tryin his level best to get me back. he did't care who he hurt as long as he got me back. the things he did. the words he said. he memories we had. i knew i could not be with anyone else other than him. life is unfair i say. i just left my best friend when he was my boy friend just like that. what a slut am i ? he understood. i thank LORD everyday that until today he still is my best friend. first love first love.. i love you . to death. and i mean it . people may say.. deevia your to young to understand love and that guy won't be you last . well people .. deevia is diffrent. deevia saw many break ups and was there to see the damage of love. friend and cousin all alike.

my love is real for this dude. if anything hapens to us again. i tottaly give up on love. i don't know why .. even when he hurts me. he says things that will make you feel . does he still want me ? and shit .. i still will go on with it. he loves me and i know it . its just that sudden feeling that drives you nuts ! i just want him to know that sometimes i don't mean what i say and sometimes he make me feel like .. i don't know .. but we have been tru many happy times together .
he make me laugh .. he is always there for me .. he listen to the dumest thing i have to say and he is willing to stand my childness. he is there to catch me when i fall .. and i hope im doin the same for him.. but i always wished he would open up to me more. he is the kind of guy that keeps things to himslef so that he won't hurt others.

i love him and i want the world to know .. and i want him to understand that he is not destroying my life but made my life alive. he tought me to be strong and tought me .. when you think your in the right just carry on doin it . even when other people thinks its wrong . don't give a fuck. he is my teacher. my love. my life . my reason to belive love. i just hope we can open up more to each other so that our understanding will grow as our relationship grow. fuck all the hates and we live our lives side by side . with the people we love in hand.


= i love you=

ONLY ONE =] navy n moni ..

me and moni kindda skip half period of english to lepak with navi .. shuba .. and steph .. they were gttin ready for the anderson iu day .. navi [my adik] and steph will be singin at the anderson iu day .. and the are .. well .. pretty good.. soo ssooo .. while they were singing .. suba was well .. pengacau antarabangsa je la .. she don't play a big role in the whole thing ..


then .. moni and navi decides to sing me a song .. ONLY ONE BY YELLOWCARD .. bt they knidda change the last part .. soo its sounds like this ....

broken this fragile thing now
but i can't seem to pick up the piceces
and i've thrown my words all around
but i can't,i can't give you a reason

i feel so broken up
and i give up
i just wanna tell you so you know...

here i go, scream my lungs out
tryna get to you
you are my only one
i let go ..

there's just no one gets me like you do
you are my only, my only one

make my mistakes let you down
but i can't, i can't hold on for too long
read my whole life in the ground
but i can't, i can't get get up when your gone

something's breaking up
i feel like giving uo
i won't walk out until you know

here i go, scream my lungs out tryna get to you
you are my only one
i let go, there's just no one gets me like you do
you are my only, my only one..

here i go
so dishonestly
leave a note, for you my only one
and i know
you can see right through me
so let me go
and you will find someone..

moni n navy to dD-

[m0ni + dD + jelisa]

hellow hellow ...
emm .. nothing much to talk about ..
bt i want pll to know my TWO BEST FRENS ! actually i have more .. like .. tharsh-pavitra-wahida-varshaa-steph-and bla.. bla..
bt this time its for my two ma's ..

most of you won't get what im about to say about this two bitches of mine .. but these bitches in my life are the best frens you can ever get .

lets start we MONI a.k.a fuck face [pane kote]
* she has always there when i need her the most
*she is my P.A
*she is the person i go to for advice
*she is my life line
*she eats my food everyday during recess !
*she stole my mum ** bwek!
*she calls me 24-7
*she is the reason i make right moves in life
*she makes me feel great
*she was the one who tought me about [LOVE* HOPE* FAITH*] &
*im makein use of it .. =]


NOW as for my JELISA ma! a.k.a ghee ball .. well she is a bitch too =)
*she sends me stupid msg like herself
*she eats like a PIG bt is thin like a stick !
*she talks non-stop about "DUBAI"
*she tak sedar diri she a version of a 'pane kote' just like me and moni =]
*she gives hard core advice .. but its all true and makes sence ..
*she thinks outside the box..
*she is outstanding & most of all ..
*she is a pain in the ass ..
*love u jsa !

[moni + dD + jelisa ] 3 amigoes !